A second entry and revalation.

Just a bit of what we are learning (I have my notebook with me now :]).
~The things we do in our lives are acts of worship to God; every little thing we do, do in worship of God. Obedience is worship!

And another thing we discussed earlier in class, but it didn't actually hit me until another girl brought it up during eveing lecture how it impacted her. Psalm 139:14 says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. I never really thought about that word 'fearfully' in this context before. In other words, we are made with awe and respect. We are made in God's image, in his likeness. Every single part of us God made after His image, He looks at every part of us in awe and with respect, because we are wonderfully made! Those things you wish weren't there, or those parts you wish were different, God made you in His image! I am wonderfully made! You are wonderfully made! Think about that for a bit :)


And a mini-revalation I had today while in lectures. The Israelites saw God perform many miracles, yet still they had doubt, still they made other idols in place of God. They had every reason to keep their faith in God, simple by all of the things they had seen Him do! but they let their faith in Him fall to the wayside. I was thinking about my journey on getting here to YWAM. For those of you who don't know, I'll try and explain it a bit. Most of you will know that money was slow to come in, and I still don't actually have even close to all of the money I need. Throughout the last few weeks before DTS, I was wondering if maybe God didn't want me to go afterall. I was going to be sad if that was the case, but I knew that God had my best interest at heart, and that He knew what was best, so that I was going to be happy no matter what happened. However, I was still trying to know from God if it was His will for me to go, in order that I still try and raise all of the support. It was about a week and half (maybe a week?) before I was about to leave, and my mom told me this story. She said that she had been praying while making dinner that night, that God would just make it clear for us if I was to keep fundraising and preparing to go to YWAM. She asked that if it was His will, He would just take care of the money. Within 2 minutes, a family friend came to the door with a check! It wasn't a large check no, but it was God at work! This encouraged me like no other! Ok so flashforward to one day before I was supposed to leave. I was short about $1700, with no plane ticket. Getting a little desperate, I went around town with my mom and Bethany, asking businesses if they would want to donate to the cause. 2/3 of the day had passed, and I had made probably a little over a hundred dollars-ish. We thought "hey, we haven't prayed about this!" So all three of us prayed and asked God that He would provide if it was His will, and that He might be able to make it clear to us if I was to go. After praying, I had to make a phone call to someone to talk about support money. Before I could finish dialing, a doctors office called me back saying they would support me! A SECOND time where God answered right away! I knew that I was supposed to go, but I just had absolutely NO idea how it was going to work out. Flashforward to that night. I was torn. I was sitting in my room, broken, asking God what all of this was about. I didn't have enough money for YWAM/plane ticket, and I was supposed to leave the next day. I was possibly the most confused I had ever been in my life. I was questioning God wondering why He would tell me to go when He didn't provide the money like I expected Him to! But as I sat there, I realized that I could not doubt God and what He had showed me through answered prayer. I had my answer already: I was to go to YWAM and He would provide. I had to plan to go in faith, that the rest of the money would come in! So I called up Jenna, my school leader, and explained the situation. She told me to use the school money that I had and buy a plane ticket, and come in faith. And that's exactly what I did! I bought a ticket the next day, and flew out the day after that for Brisbane. I ended up coming a day late, but everyone who knows me knows thats the only way I roll anyways!! hahaha :) Hey, I showed up late to the last day of school, to graduation, and to my own little going away shin-dig to name a few, haha it couldn't have been any other way!
The revelation was this: I was so very glad that I kept my faith in God and the little things He had shown me, unlike the Israelites! I was so tempted to just forget about the answered prayers/signs, but instead I followed God's guidance, and here I am now at YWAM! God is good, eh?!